I have noticed tonight, that every week at work I feel like crap. When asked why I look down I respond “rough week” Why is this? every week for me is a bad one. Nothing seems to go right! it smells. I’m not going back to how I have been, that I refuse to do and I reserve to extend my anger fuse. I get irritated by far too easily, so I am going to change this. Although, I don’t get on too great with the girls at work. I always feel like I have to keep my wits about me. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with them, although they could be a little less gossipy, (I don’t like gossip and therefore have to try very hard to show any interest in it). I have resolved, after snapping at James this evening, something I shouldn’t have done, to try and be more friendly and sociable. I might be a little to myself but I can work on it and see if I can be less like that, because otherwise I’ll not make friends with any of my collegues. I still feel bad for snapping at james, and its got to be about an hour or two since I apologised to him last, he is within his right to be irritated with me, I just hope I haven’t turned him against me. The other girls made a big deal of leaving the room when Shauna and I discussed Kim Scrivin. She, who was worried about for dissappearing on wednesday, has apparently been found to be perfectly okay, so I am just a little peeved with her for not saying anything to me about it, also, Shauna has shown me a whole new side to Kim that I have never seen before. I will not disclose anything here, other than it is not a good side. Having now heard that Kim is okay, I reserve to wash my hands of her. I have a feeling that it will take a while for the dust to properly settle between everyone regarding that particular episode, but I hope nothing is held against me, as I acted on instinct – not a good move for me because when I get angry people know about it. I just hope James forgives me for biting his head off, and I hope shauna doesn’t think i’m anything like Kim. I am not. At all. I refuse to end this post on a negative note, so I will say that I am going to make myself integrate into the ranks a bit more, and try and be more sociable with the others.